I want to go to a lake
I want to submerge myself in it and scream.
I don’t want anyone to hear,
I don’t want to wake anyone with my
pity party,
my pity party.
I’m just trying to release the tension in my brain.
I guess I’m just going through the natural order of things.
Total bummer,
Total bummer in my brain.
I’m trying not to convince myself that things could be different
because if I do then the bummer will take over.
And I can’t let that happen.
I want my blood to hold happiness like a cradle,
I want to melt like heroine in a spoon.
I want to not think that I have to get these feelings from something else,
That I can depend on myself,
but it’s so hard to believe with the way that these movies are.
It’s so hard to believe with this bummer in my brain.