This shouldn’t be relevant.
I must doing things wrong,
I must have made a mistake.
If remaining thoughtless,
was in my options.
If ignoring things made them
irrelevant,
life would be to simple.
Life would hurt in other ways.
So what’s the point?
I want things to go away,
but I also want to talk about it.
What am I to do as someone who wants everything?
What am I to do as someone who cares too much about image?
What am I to do as someone who has these ill feelings?
What am I to do as someone who has no where to put them?
I feel like I’ve just been saying the same things over and over to myself.
I’m not doing a good job explaining my words to myself,
so I just let the words repeat
and convince myself that they are right.
Stubbornness is frustrating that’s why I feel this way I guess.
I’d rather just not think about it,
but my friends bring it up to me.
I’d rather just not think about it,
but how could I be proud.
I’d rather just not think about it,
but I don’t want to be that way.
I’d rather just not think about it,
but my thoughts stay on repeat.